Emotionally draining...

Sometimes I think I have to go through my own form of depression to get to my normal feeling again. These past few days seem to be my down days for the time being. I have been feeling kind of out of it over the past few days...and I think I kind of know why.

If you will allow me to share then here I go...

My Mom had two of her toes amputated on Monday (we knew it was going to happen for several weeks). While we were with her in the hospital waiting for her Operating Room to be made available we were talking...I say we meaning my Mom, Sister and Brother. Well as we were sitting there talking my Mom brought up something about our family not seeing each other enough. My sister says that she is a loner...doesn't need to see the family that much. I kind of feel that way too...but after thinking about it for a while, I have to admit that when I am with my brothers, sister and mom I like it a lot! We usually have a fun time and of course since we are grown we don't carry on like kids with fighting and bickering any more. :) My mom can bring things down with her negativity...which she recognizes and asks God to overlook that about her. At least that is what she told me this morning while I was talking to her on the phone. For the most part I think about all the fun times we have had when we all get together a few times throughout the year and think...we should do this more often. Heck...Why Not? My Mom made a good point...isn't that what Mothers tend to do? :)

I feel bad for my Mom right now...she is in the hospital which is a good drive down the road so we won't be able to visit her like she was right here in town. She loves company...and she doesn't have any right now. :-( She is going to need lots of care when she does come home from the hospital because she will be confined to a wheelchair. If you know my mom...she doesn't like to be confined...Thank goodness she wasn't a criminal! haha!

As this day progresses I haven't been my most cheerful self...I need a day or so to take in and digest what is going on and accept the fact that I can't fix things for my Mom. But I can take some initiative and try to encourage my family to come together more often. Once a week would be great! :) So...family...if you are reading this...what do you think? Let's make it happen!